My Spiritual Dilemma After Kundalini Awakening

I did not have a small awakening, a gentle awakening. I had a year long Dark Night of the Soul followed by My Kundalini blasting painfully trough my crown. My Kundalini Awakening was like a Volcano Erupting and those powerful Energies of the Goddess Decimated my Ego and My Reality. I am no stranger to Spiritual Emergency or Supernatural Phenomena but nothing could have prepared me for the Veil drop I experienced in my Kundalini Awakening.

That EVERY part of my reality was an Illusion.

I have been on a Spiritual Path since I was born. Literally, delivered in a world famous cult in the 70's. I believe this was 100% the DIVINE plan. My soul was like "Get me into the Belly". I have the soul of an Angelic Warrior. But after my Kundalini Awakening I am at ground zero. I know nothing, except that most paths are false. Illusion ~ Ego games. So now what? I move to a ranch and live in nature with animals and the magic of creation? Maybe.

Shakti saved me from my pain - from my Illusion. 

I died 1000 deaths in the coils of her embrace. And then we became one as I infused her into every cell in my body. She radiates through every muscle, every fiber. My skin, my hair, my eyes shine with her living light codes. Magnetizing every bit of me to my beloved. He flows down encompassing all that I am, bringing the water for my fire. Quenching my thirst. What does it feel like to be a vessel for the divine? For Sacred marriage within? It feels like my body is finally the temple it was always designed to be. The cosmos sends its liquid light down around and through me, ecstatic chills dance with my body reminding me what unity is. How did I get here? I died while being alive. The most excruciating death. The death that comes while one lives. The death of oneself entirely and completely. My savior was a goddess. Not a male, not a god, not a christ, not a prince. 

She saved me from the illusion of my mind. Liberated me from myself. 

And now I belong to her. 

So no not a small Awakening, not an opening.

A death and rebirth that I barely survived,

but redemption found me and it was Christed and continues today.

So what will I do now that I see through the illusion of life?

Whatever Father God and Mother God place before me.

I'm constantly guided to return to being. And it's not what you "think" it is.

Being is Everything.

Where everything exists.

When you are just Being, EVERYTHING is already there.

It is not Doing! That is ego. You are taught to Do. Always doing.

Your energy is also DOING. Your cells are doing. That is the power of the mind and the collective consciousness.

Being opens your world to GOD and to your purpose

Awakening from a Spiritual Life into Spiritual Truth could be a better title for this Blog.

So what do I do from here?

I begin to live a life free from Illusion and I experience what that might be like.

With Love,

Genevieve